Forgiveness is something that is not easy to come by. Many claim they are able to but few actually do. What people fail to see is that just saying you forgive someone or something does not make it so. In the back, front or even the middle of your mind lies what was done. True forgiveness, honest forgiveness can only come through love, peace and parting ways with what was done.

When someone you love hurts you, forgiveness may be difficult because what happened plays over and over like a broken record in your head. This is usually the reason people let the person go instead of their mistake. When you really truly love someone, while the anger may sit for a while it can never stick. Knowing someone is knowing when what they have done was who they are or them getting lost on their way. As humans we are not only capable and likely to make mistakes but we are entitled. You can't want someone to be true to themselves and yet condem them for making a mistake. The tricky part is knowing if it was an honest mistake or something that happened for a reason. This is where knowing that person come into play. See quite often when entering or in a relationship we are so consumed with finding happiness for ourselves that we overlook the point of loving someone. The reason we love someone is for who they are in their entirety. Putting what we want aside long enough to learn who they are. People who are together for long periods of time and/or together until death have been able to do something so many of us aren't. They know each other, accept each other and know that with each day we each change a little bit. Nothing can possibly stay the same forever and the same way we evolve with society, we must learn to evolve with the one we love. That hard work is where many falter and give up. 

I have learned that I am not able to forgive what has been done to me because while I may have loved them, it wasn't returned. I wasn't accepted for who I was and though I was willing to accept them and their faults, it wasn't reciprocated. This doesn't mean they are horrible people. They just aren't where I am and thus had to stay behind as I continue moving forward. See that is the other difficult part of forgiveness......forgiving what was done even though the other person may not be sorry or care to make things right. It then becomes our own responsibility to forgive enough to move on without allowing what was done to consume our minds, bodies and soulds. Maybe one day....maybe when I have gotten far enough ahead I will be able to cut it away. For now, well, for now I am simply learning to manage the load as I keep trucking forward. Eventually I will reach a point where the load is too heavy to carry and because I am so determined to move forward I will HAVE to let it go......but for now......haha for now, I am enjoying the human in me that allows me to make this mistake :)