Well, after allowing myself to drift towards possibilities, I have returned my focus to where it should be. There are moments in life when we do what is called day dreaming. We picture something in our lives that isn't there and imagine what it would be like if it were. Making the decision to focus on yourself and let go of any thought of love is a difficult task to stick to. It can be a very lonely life and when a potential opportunity comes along, it is easy to get side tracked...even to see something that isn't really there. Now it can be hard to decipher which is the case but you will always know when it has taken too much thought. Sometimes, instead of trying to understand a possibility, it is best to ride them out. Take a step back and just let things fall where they may. If it should happen that they fall away from you, let it go. If it is meant for them to fall towards you (whether perminently or temporarily) then they will. Jumping the gun will always lead to dissapointment. There are people who believe that you should never let life just happen to you. Some believe that if they sit back they will be ok. The truth is that a little of both is really the best way to go and there is a difference between the two. Riding things out and letting things that are meant for you, come your way is not the same as not just letting life happen to you. Not allowing life to just happen means making decisions that will shape your life into what you want. Now with something like love and dating, it is always best not to force anything. When it's time for something, the right moment will present itself. Now it isn't always easy to know when that moment is, which is why you have to trust your gut. In my experience, your gut will ALWAYS lie to you if you haven't learned to love and trust yourself. It's really your best friend but if you aren't in sync with yourself then your signals will always be mis-interpreted. The biggest lesson you can learn is to accept yourself for who you are.

I have reached that point in my life where I have finally understood these things. My focus is on what it should be which is ME and the life I am seeking for my daughter. If love is meant for me, it will happen in its own time. Love, much like God, does not like to be rushed. It happens in its own time and in its own way. I am waiting patiently but it is still nice to drift :) and if a dream is a wish your heart makes when you're fast asleep, a day dream is the hope your heart holds :)