i'm pretty emotional normally and have been treated for mild clinical depression for many years. post partum depression hit me really hard with my first, but i think i'm more even this time. i've been on medication since evie was born (she'll be 7 in august) and i think that's helping me stay more even this time. don't get me wrong, i definitely have ups and downs, probably more than the average person. i find myself crying for no real reason and i blame myself for everything...even things that aren't really wrong. husband tries to get me to stop watching law and order because it gives me nightmares about the girls getting hurt and i wake up crying and frantic to make sure they're alright.