Amparo, praying for GOD's peace to surround you as you are dealing with so many things in your life this week. My kids are all grown and I still get concerned for their safety... But when I do, the Holy Spirit reminds me that I placed each child in His hands many years ago and although He doesn't promise their lives will be problem-free, He has promised that He will never let any of them go. That sustains me and calms my concerns.
It must be so difficult to celebrate your birthday and the loss of your brother on the same day. I cannot imagine what that would be like, but remember that - as you said - one day you will have that glorious reunion with him ! Have you ever made a scrapbook page or album about your brother? If not, this might help you focus on the happy and lovley memories, rather than on the sadness of his passing. If that seems like too much of a project at this time, you could always just write a letter or make a list, full of all the best things about your brother than you can think of. Celebrate the good and cast away the sad.
What kind of work does your hubby do, that it takes him away from home? My Hubby goes out of state several times a year (for 5 or more days at a time) and it does get lonely without him here, but on the other hand, it frees me up to be able to do some things that I don't get a chance to do when he's here! Nothing awful or "bad" - but I can stay up as late as I want, watch whatever TV shows I like, eat certain foods/meals that he doesn't care for, etc. ! But I understand that your hubby being gone is happening at the same time that Lesseth is gone and the birthday/annivesary is this week as well. Will be praying for GOD to be your Husband while hubby is away - that He will keep you all safe and protected during this time and that hubby will return home safe and sound!
Blessings on you, dear Amparo - remember we're always here for you !
LiC - kimB