Description: This was a difficult LO to do. I consider it my "rough draft" because I may tweak the journaling a little bit. It is about my journey in becoming a mother.
Journaling:
In the beginning on my journey to Motherhood I really had alot of changing to do. The first few months of being a stay at home mom were somewhat agonizing. I was bored out of my mind. Yes, I had you to take care of and yes it was a lot of work and big YES I definately loved you but I was so used to a totally different lifestyle filled with demands, pressures, deadlines. Now my days were filled with dirty diapers, spit up, crying and waiting around for you to wake up and eat. I was torn. Part of me wanted to just work outside the home. Afterall, I kind of liked being insanely busy. But part of me could not give up my days with you. I wanted to be the one who fed you, clothed you, changed your dirty diapers. So I began praying...Day After Day...that God would change my heart. That He would make me the Mother that He wanted me to be. It took a very long time but eventually I began to really truly enjoy spending time at home. I enjoyed doing things with you, playing with you, reading you books and watching you learn. I enjoyed being able to keep the house clean and having dinner ready for Daddy when he got home. I enjoyed my new job as a Homemaker. I saw the blessedness in serving my family and sacrificing so much of my wants to provide for all of your needs. It is more blessed to give than receive. I have been blessed more than I could ever tell by loosing my life for the sake of what God has called me to do. I found my life, my calling.