Description: So this is another reason for my inability to get any scrapping done lately... we are homeschooling for the next of this year.. it has been crazy, scary, rewarding.. gee so much harder and hands on than I expected.. just as an update since I wrote this a little while ago when we first started Keean is doing awesome! He is working on grade 5 math (he is in gr.2)!! And reading at a grade 3 level!! so proud of him! Shame on his teacher for saying he couldn't read!! lol thanks for looking!!


Journaling- We have had so many challenges lately. sometimes i am worried that i am doing the wrong thing. i guess to be totally honest i feel like that pretty much the entire day. everything from the food you eat to the t.v shows you watch i am always worried of making that one life altering mistake. i have resolved to the fact that most parents probably feel like this to some extent but, ever since the trouble at school started i have been petrified that i will chose the wrong path for you. that's the problem. i have always had to make choices for you since birth and all of them i felt i could sufficiently research and come to a reasonable conclusion. i could still sleep at night. the school thing has me going crazy. do i leave you where your self esteem is being deeply harmed every day? do i try and fight the school board to make them resolve this? do i take you home and try home school until we move to a location with more choices? i feel like this choice could change your entire outlook of education and set the tone for the rest of your life. that is so incredibly scary to me., this is something i am going into blind. this is something i can't just find the answer to on google. this time it isn't black and white. since we have chosen to sell our house and home school i have been worried i am not up to the job. i am worried i will be distracted and busy. i don't want you miss out on all the great things school provides, friends, plays, field trips, and that spark. the first time a teacher really sparks an insatiable interest in something. something new to you. i want to see you come home with that light in your face made by achieving goals on your own outside of home. by no means do i plan to home school you for good. but i hope you know i really thought this through i agonized over this choice. i am already sorry if chose the wrong path for you. i hope this opportunity instead, is a great experience for both of us. mostly i hope you know that it was the only choice i had left and i did this because i would do anything for you. i love you this much. i see the whole world ahead of you. i hope i am able to encourage you and support you in finding your passion. in living your dreams. i hope this is the way