Journaling: CANCER, A big bad scary word that turns your life upside down when you hear it, for many it is a death sentence, but is a treatable disease that does not have to take over your life. With faith and God’s love each day can be taken in stride. Yesterday, we found out that George has testicular cancer and will have surgery on Friday. We do not know the extent of it, or what will be happening in the foreseeable future. Ever since he told me I have been on an emotional roller coaster with some pretty deep valleys. Knowing that I need to be strong not only for George but, also for Victor, I find myself wondering how I will cope as we move forward, who will I lean on during the dark times and celebrate with during the light. This morning I found myself turning to the word for comfort, specifically the Psalms, to find the words to pray for comfort and healing. I went first to the 23rd Psalm knowing that it is a prayer for the strength found in God. Then I started to look at the other chapters. The 3rd Psalm starts:O Lord, how many are my foes! Many are rising against me: many are saying to me, “There is no help for you in God.” Selah. –Psalm 3:1-2 NRSVMy foes are the doubts and the cancer in George’s body. These are the words of the devil lying to weaken us, to keep us from reaching out. Verse 3 goes on to say:But you, Oh Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, and the one who lifts up my head. I cry aloud to the Lord, and he answers me from his holy hill. Selah. –Psalm 3:3-4 NRSV
know that there is help for us in God, there is love and hope in his presence. As we have shared this news with our family and friends there has been an outpouring of love and support, along with prayers for healing and strength. By crying out to God and asking for help from those who know and care about us we gather the strength to fight.I lie down and sleep; I wake again, for the Lord sustains me. I am not afraid of ten thousands of people who have set themselves against me all around. Rise up, O Lord! Deliver me, O my God! For you strike all my enemies on the cheek; you break the teeth of the wicked. Deliverance belongs to the Lord; may your blessing be on your people! Selah –Psalm 3:5-8 NRSVI do not need to fear the worst, for we are truly surrounded by God’s love, he will provide us with the strength that we need each day. Yes CANCER has turned our lives upside down but it has not ended them. George and I have had over 13 years happiness together, we have a wonderful son to raise together and there will be many more years for us as a family to come.
Credits: Knightmares by Kristmess; Knightmares Alpha by Kristmess; Knightmares Shabby by Kristmess. Font: Complete in Him.