Just reposting this after pub.
Hidden journaling to my baby boy is behind photo. TFL!
This was for the 8/15 ScrapFaith Challenge to scrap a time our prayers were not answered. This was a very difficult page for me but a great journey.
More photos are on my blog: http://www.danielleholsapple.wordpress.com
Behind the title is hidden journaling...you pull the orange felt heart.
When you were born we know something wasn't quite right. But we didn't know just how bad it was until the anesthesiologist asked if she could say a prayer for you with us. That shook me up. I really hadn't ever thought anything bad would happen to you. But things were bad. I remember lying on the OR table with tears running into my ears. Inside I was screaming “God, please save our boy.” As the day went on many prayers were lifted up on your behalf. You father and I, your grandparents, your great grandparents , your aunts and uncles, other family and friends, nurses, doctors & strangers all asked the Lord to allow you to stay on Earth with us. God decided not to answer our prayers.
Over the last 5 months I've begun to come to terms with the fact that I may not know why our prayers went unanswered. But I find comfort knowing I may learn why when we reunite in Heaven. The Bible says in Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose” and in Matthew 6:10 “May your Kingdom come, your will be done.” While I don't understand fully why you couldn't stay with us Sam, I know that it is God's will and I will do my best not to question that. The Lord is so much more than I can ever comprehend. I have found it is alright that I don't know, today, why my desperate prayers went unanswered. While it was excruciatingly nightmarish that day, time and the Truth have helped me deal with it.
I can't help but look forward to the day when we meet again in Heaven. I will hold you in my arms and all will feel right again. I know Jesus is holding you and rocking you. You, Sam, likely know the reason my prayers were unanswered. And someday I will know, too. I trust that you are comforted by the Lord and know how deeply I love you.