Half of the 2-pager chronicling my feelings about breastfeeding my baby boy. Journaling reads: "There are so many things I love about motherhood, but breastfeeding is far and away my favorite. Before I had children, I wasn't sure I'd be physically capable. Nursing Caitrin turned out to be second nature and I was amazed. When she decided at 16 months that she was done, I felt very conflicted. I was happy that we'd had such a wonderful experience for so much longer than most. We were trying for another baby (AKA you) and I had my suspicions that nursing would hinder that process. But mostly I was sad that my baby was growing up and away from me and regretful that I never made an attempt to document our journey.
When you were born, I was psyched to start nursing again. You were four weeks early and pretty tiny as baby boys go, so even though we got off to a great start, you didn't gain enough weight to satisfy the doctors right away. Daddy and I were taking you to Dr. Gordon for weight checks every few days during your first couple weeks. He told me I had to supplement you with formula twice a day after nursing. I was devastated. After all, I knew how to nurse. I never had to supplement Caitrin and she was a good deal smaller than you were. My milk supply was good. I hated the thought of anything but my milk in my sweet little baby's belly. I cried a lot because I thought I was failing you. But because my first concern was your health, I went ahead with the supplementation. By six weeks, you had finally crossed the tenth percentile and Dr. Gordon said we could discontinue the supplement. I was thrilled.
Sometime around three months, I noticed that you did better if I fed you on demand than on a schedule. Sometimes you would nurse every two hours, but other times you'd be hungry again half an hour after we finished a feeding. I threw away the schedule I'd kept since you were born and started nursing you anytime you wanted it. I also made the decision to listen to my intuition and delay starting you on solid foods (even cereal) until 6 months, ensuring you'd get the most Mama juice for the longest amount of time possible. You have benefitted immensely. At your six-month checkup, you weighed 16 lbs., 2 oz. (25th-50th percentile) and were 27 ¾ inches long (90th) percentile!
My favorite times of day are those spent nursing you, cuddled up with you close to my heart. I love the feel of your tiny fingers wrapped around mine, the way you pat my face and play with my hair and pull off to smile at me. I love that this is a bond that only you and I share. I will nurse you as often and as long as you want. Medical experts speak of breastfeeding as the ultimate gift a mother can give her child, but I feel as though I'm being given the gift. The way you look at me with such trust and purity fills my heart with the utmost joy."
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