When I saw this month theme at OUAS I thought of a lot of moments I will never forget in my life. Giving nirth to 8 children, marriage, divorce, little moments of happines or sorrow, and also the big ones.Everybody has them in life.
But still ...there was one moment in my life my heart was releaved, happy this moment finally was there.
It was when one of my sons told me he is gay.
I was a busy mom , raising 8 children by myself, so there was not a lot of time for each child.We were very poor at that time.
But I knew since Andreas was 3 years old he was gay.
I wrote it down and I am still happy I did, because now I could show him he was born that way.
It was just a feeling, something was different on him, althought he did act like his other brothers.
Perhaps because of the fact he has 5 "macho"brothers he became the boy he is now.
But at the same time he had a struggle his whole life.
Discovering you have other feelings and never can love a wife, have children, afraid you are "not normal".
Can you imagine how hard that must be for a young boy?
And I, as his mother could not help him, untill he came out.
And he did , YES HE DID!
When he was 18 years old, he came over to my house, he just moved out.
He stayed all saterday, the other boys where not at home that weekend.
Than he said: I sleep here tonight. That was funny and I became a feeling something was going on.
Next morning we were talking , having some fun.
I was standing in the kitchen and he said from the living room: mum, can you sit down here, I want to tell you something.
My heart was going like crazy...the moment was there!! I knew it.
I already had a smile, but I tryed to stay calm.
I sit on the coach, he is standing on the other site of the table (yes, he took his moment, lol) , and he said: I am gay. And I said : yes I know.
And than we had a long talk about what his brothers would say , he was not very afraid of it, but still..you never know.
That day we talked (and still do) about this crazy world, gays being abused because they are gay, people who think it is a phase you can come over.Or a illness , can you believe they are so dumm?
He will always meet people like this, but he has a big family who accept him the way he is.
We make jokes , sometimes he makes jokes, it is not a silence issue in our family. He doesn't hide it to the world, but still sometimes he is oncomfortable in situations. He doesn't spread the word if it is not necessary.
But he, he will survive!
I made this page with the 7 dots studio papers, which I love! Also the little flower with left overs from the papers.