Thanks to all. Update: dad will need a quadruple bypass and it is planned for Wednesday. They have to test his liver and kidneys as they are strained from the unchecked diabetes. I have decided to forego my trip to Arizona. After talking to a friend with exxtensive psychology background he agreed that mom keeps her emotions in check best when she doesn't have others around her. The minute she sees one of us girls she breaks down in tears.
However, I believe one of the girls are planning to fly down and another already had tickets for mid-February.
Thank you all for being a rock during this storm. It seems like the last few months with health, grandma's death, Uncle Mel's death, job reorg, and now dad that I've not really had a chance to to just have the mundane.
Bren, I continue to pray for your dear dad. Yes, the past few months have been so very difficult for you....but even through these past months, you continue to encourage all with your beautiful postings.
Good morning beautiful ladies.
I hope that you each have a wonderful blessed day.
We are going to have a rainy day all day. God is watering so that His beautiful will shine in the Spring. I think that as I walk outside today, I will choose to see God with His watering can in the clouds. 67 degrees and the high is forcasted for 74 today. It got to the low 80's the last couple of days. It has been very nice. That is my kind of winter.
Bren, Your faith and strength always amazes me. You've been through so much these past few months and yet you are always a rock. Your daddy, his medical team, you and your family will continue in my prayers.
Bren, thinking of you. Today would have been my dad's birthday, he has been gone for nearly 24 years already but I still miss him so much. I guess they will always be with us as we carry them in our hearts.
Lorna, thank you for the comment on my avi, it is one of my crazy pages I did for my mixed media journal.
Hi there everyone, Bren praying for Fred's health. Gosh I am tired. Well I trained a new girl today so I don't have to go back tomorrow yay!!!! Will sleep in tomorrow and hang around the house by myself. My hubby is working with brother temporarily so the house is all to myself..
So finally found a psychitrist. Going to get my meds looked at. Depression has leveled out some. I cam to terms with my relationship with my daughter. She lives with her Father this was her choice, she chooses not to see me unless she wants something then its mail it to me. I will always be here for her but she needs to respect me as her mother . I still text once a week and call once a week she does not answer. I joined the project 52 challenge. I am make a book of me and my life. It is sometimes hard but i am enjoying it. Cant wait for Martica's next swap idea. Sorry i rambled.
I gotta tell you dad has never been one to make things easy and he's staying true to form.
So...this morning the cardiologist surgeon comes in to explain the tests on his kidneys, and they're talking about the different challenges they have to address when dad pipes up that yea all this and we haven't even gotten to the carotid artery. Well now, that put the kibish on the quadruple bypass for the moment. it seems if your carotid artery is clogged more than 70% then doing the heart surgery would cause him to stroke out. Men! I tell you they are a pain in the bum.
Yes, I know I may be trying to be too light but if I didn't I'd have to strangle my dad for taking such poor care of himself. Uggghhh.
So the vascular surgeon, the heart specialist and the cardio surgeon are in their little round table meeting to discuss how to address dad's plethora (funny word) of issues.
Will keep you posted.
Oh and mom is NOT appreciating dad's and mine sick sense of humor at the moment either. She's says we are not being serious enough. hmmmm
My prayers are continuing for all of you as well as you continue to face your challenges:
Linny, Camille, and your SIL -
Update at 5.30pm - mom called - he will go in at 7.30 tomorrow morning for quad bp as they feel it is not prudent to wait. Prayers and well wishes requested.
Heather, it's a sad situation that you are in, but as you say your daughter has made her choice and maybe she will realise when she gets older how wrong she has been. I know its easy to say but dont be too hard on yourself, you can only do so much.
Martica, you must be feeling free as a bird. Well done, you are going to love your new job.
@Dawna - it's easy to sound faithful and strong online. After all, I don't have to let you all see the circles that sometimes gather under my eyes from lack of sleep, or the shakes I get when I get too anxious. I can hide the gritting of my teeth so hard that my jaw aches or the wringing of the hands.
The truth is I get just as scared. I was always taught not to burden others that everyone had their own problems. We all have some sort of dysfunctional tape that runs through our minds.
I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm like all of you. Whether I'm concerned for you comfort or mine. Today - I don't feel like a grown woman. I feel like that little girl that would sit underneath my dad's arm. You know the smell of your dad's kind of soapy and boy (and back then Old Spice) and every scent that made me feel safe. As long as I was there, nothing in the world could hurt me. I thought my daddy was the biggest strongest thing in the world.
Today, my dad is frail and for a daughter that scares me. How can it be the man that was my stronghold is now needing strength from me? It doesn't seem right. It's awkward and disconcerting. Yet he was there for me so today I will shelve the little girl, pull my shoulders back, pray a little more, smile a little less and try and keep the fear out of my voice.
I love you all. May God be your comfort today when those that used to comfort you cannot.
God is my Strength. "I love you, Lord, You are my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my Savior. My God is my rock in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me and my place of safety. I called on the Lord, who is worthy of praise, and He saved me from my enemies." Psalm 18:1-3 (nlt)