Since childhood, I was an abused child, lead a dysfunctional life for most of my whole life, terrorized by panic disorder because of it, and it crippled me. Once I learned that if I faced the fears, I could live again.
In 2005 I had to come to grips with the fears in my life as I learned something that hurt me to the bottom of my soul. And then other things started happening. I had to gain control or I knew I would cease to exist.
Being on this site and journalling has helped me do that. We have nothing to fear but fear itself, tho it terrorizes us. Once we regain control, we can begin to live again.
This picture is ugly, I put it in my gallery to remind fear that I will regain control, I will win. Its even on my screen saver for now. This is not directed at anyone, it is to jolt me every time I look at my gallery. It is to remind me never fear, god is near.
Thanks for looking. If you are crippled by this disorder, please get help, you will win.