Journaling reads: May 5th, 2009. I knew it was coming but wasn't sure that would be the day. The last day that I would nurse you, ever. For awhile I had been working on weaning you. Over a period of a month or so I started putting you down for naps without nursing. Then I stopped nursing you through the night when you would wake up. But, for a few weeks after that I still held on to that one last session of nursing you before bed in the evening. It was so hard to let go. You are my last baby after all. But, in a week and a half Daddy and I are going away for a couple of nights so I knew I would have to stop. On May 6th, Daddy put you to bed. You did rebel a bit (but heck, so did I!), but you were pretty good. Only a few tears and Daddy stayed until you fell asleep. I'm still happy to get up with you at night and rock you to sleep if you need it, at least I can hold on to that as long as I want. And I will, for sure! I'll never be one of those moms that wishes she had held her babies more...I'm getting all the snuggles I can while you guys are little! As I look at you peeking out of this pirate ship, I can't help but think that it won't be long before you will look at me over your shoulder as you run off to school, as you graduate high school, as you leave home, as you walk down the aisle. It won't be long before you peek at me from around your own sleeping baby's head. I'm sure time will pass like the blink of an eye! So, can you blame me for hanging on to your babyhood? Please forgive me as I smother you with snuggles and kisses...you'll understand someday when you're a Mommy. And please, don't grow up too fast!!