Just reposting this after pub.
Hidden journaling to my baby boy is behind photo. TFL!
This was for the 8/15 ScrapFaith Challenge to scrap a time our prayers were not answered. This was a very difficult page for me but a great journey. More photos are on my blog: http://www.danielleholsapple.wordpress.com
Behind the title is hidden journaling...you pull the orange felt heart. Journaling:
When you were born we know something wasn't quite right. But we didn't know just how bad it was until the anesthesiologist asked if she could say a prayer for you with us. That shook me up. I really hadn't ever thought anything bad would happen to you. But things were bad. I remember lying on the OR table with tears running into my ears. Inside I was screaming “God, please save our boy.” As the day went on many prayers were lifted up on your behalf. You father and I, your grandparents, your great grandparents , your aunts and uncles, other family and friends, nurses, doctors & strangers all asked the Lord to allow you to stay on Earth with us. God decided not to answer our prayers.
Over the last 5 months I've begun to come to terms with the fact that I may not know why our prayers went unanswered. But I find comfort knowing I may learn why when we reunite in Heaven. The Bible says in Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose” and in Matthew 6:10 “May your Kingdom come, your will be done.” While I don't understand fully why you couldn't stay with us Sam, I know that it is God's will and I will do my best not to question that. The Lord is so much more than I can ever comprehend. I have found it is alright that I don't know, today, why my desperate prayers went unanswered. While it was excruciatingly nightmarish that day, time and the Truth have helped me deal with it.
I can't help but look forward to the day when we meet again in Heaven. I will hold you in my arms and all will feel right again. I know Jesus is holding you and rocking you. You, Sam, likely know the reason my prayers were unanswered. And someday I will know, too. I trust that you are comforted by the Lord and know how deeply I love you.