I did this for Pub Calls Blog it's about the darker aspect in my life My son's suicide I have never actually come out and told anyone my feelings about this but now thatnks to this contest I am.
These eyes cry every night for you
These arms long to hold you again
The hurtin's on me, yeah
And I will never be free, no, my baby, no no
You gave a promise to me, yeah
An' you broke it, an' you broke it, oh no
These eyes watched you bring my world to an end
This heart could not accept and pretend
Lyrics by Randy Bachman and Burton Cummings
There is hidden journalling under the photo of my son and myself it reads ( viewer desretion)
I haven't really excpressed my feelings about my son's suicide untill now. I am angry, I am hurt, I am destraught. My son at the age of 13 decided it was ok to take his own life. Why why why??? Why did he do this why did he have to hurt me in this most horrible way. I know I am being selfish but dammit I'm mad. I loved my son whole heartedly and he couldn't come to me and tell me he was hurting, he is so selfish. I know I am being petty but I am so hurt His pain is over mine is just beginning and will be forever. He never left a note so my questions will
be forever unanswered. I love you Alex and I always will.