I need to make a post...I need to get something off my chest. I don't want to hear any flames about this so if you don't like the title of the post, please stop reading now.
Girls, I'm fat. One year ago, I had somethings happen to me that required a bunch of medicines. Four of them that I had to take caused weight gain. In the past year, I've gained over 100 pounds. When my dh met me I was a size 10. I'm now a size 20. From February to until June of last year, I gained so much weight that the wedding dress that I bought in November that had to be taken in, needed to be let out quite a bit.
Well, it's been a lot of time since June. Each day, I've gained a little more weight. I think I've been in denial over it all. I haven't really bought any new clothes all the time thinking, "hey, I'm just going to loose it all anyway." Well, ya know what? I'm tired of that mentallity. I'm tired of thinking it's all going to happen some day in the future. You know what? It just might. But right now, it's not.
I'm still taking those meds. I've got to accept myself the way that I am. I think I started doing that this week. On Monday, I went to Lane Bryant for the first time. It was amazing ladies. For the first time in my life, any type of clothing that I saw in the store that I liked they had in my size!! It was amazing!!! I have clothes that fit me like a dream!!!!!! I look good ladies. And I mean good. 
Today, I took the next step. I went to Lowe's with my dh and picked up some Rubbermaid containers. I packed up all the clothes in my closet that don't fit. My closet now has only stuff that fits me. Lots of extra space now. 
My dh told me this week how much he loved me and that he didn't care what size I was. To have him understand and have it not matter how big I am really means a lot to me.
This has been a week of change and reflection for me. For some, it may seem restricting to realize that they may be a bigger size for a while. But for me, I finally feel free.
Amy
