Innocent no more!
I am the mother of a teenage girl,
Submitted by: Rrnay
The one I've protected from all the world.
She went to a party,
And curiosity struck,
And there she ran into a bit of bad luck.
On the way to the party, we discussed all the issues,
Of drinking, and drugs, and all the misuses.
But when she got there, the talk she had gotten
The warnings of drinking had all been forgotten.
She drank till she puked, all over her clothes
And the feelings of loss and innocence arose.
All of her friends had just left her there.
With no one to help her, with no one to care.
I guess their afraid of what might happen them
But where did they go when the choking began?
I thought to myself, where did I go wrong?
Why couldn't she say no, and just be strong?
I thought I had taught her to always do right
But now I know, she cant leave my sight.
I thought I would be angry, and ready to kill
But inside my mind was panicked but still.
I thought I would be the one to scream and shout.
But instead, we just kept going about.
I was just happy to have her alive and at home,
And to tell her that she'll never be alone.
I was so glad that she's still here to hug.
And that we weren't asked if we should pull the plug.
I knew that one day she would want to try
But I just didn't realize, it would make us cry.
I feel like her innocence has been shattered like glass
When she drank the tequila, that kicked her ass.
I thought I could never look at her the same.
I hope she knows that it was not a game.
Now I am left with feelings of shame
With feelings of hurt, and only me to blame.
I must not have told her in just the right way.
I should have told her each, and every day.
I guess I didn't get through to her right.
But hopefully someday I will get it right.
So now I cant trust her, and I feel so bad
But I know I cant loose her, it would be to sad
How do we parents ever begin to trust
How do save them when their ready to bust.
How do I know she wont do it again.
How do I know when its about to begin.
All I can do is tell her I'm there.
And that I'll always be with her everywhere.
And hope that when I let her out of my sight
I wont have to worry, cause I know she will do right.
I just hope that she knows that I'll love her always
Even, when she lets me down, on those very rare days.
I don't just love her when she does something good.
I don't just love her cause I know I should.
I know she is human, and she will make mistakes.
But in the end i hope, it's the right road she takes.
But after all is done, this has to be said
I'm glad she's home safe, and not somewhere dead